Everything Now

My prayers lately have been focusing on that MAGNITUDE of God. The enormity of Him. Remembering that to the God who keeps all of the planets spinning in orbit, and aligned and tilted just perfectly, can certainly handle the bumps and surprises in my life.

When I go too far in thinking about the magnitude, and inevitably think “but I am so small, why would He care?” I remember the verse “looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” (Hebrew 12:2, ESV) The joy set before Him was the completion of His Father’s will — to be the atonement for the sin of all humanity– past, present and future! I am included in that number! Before He went to the cross, He thought of me!

I also find comfort in this verse: “(h)e chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him.” (Ephesians 1:4)

With the the dual natures of magnificence and intimacy darting about in my mind, the lyrics for this song came to be.

Lord before You
Spoke into darkness
There was nothing
In this world
Lord before You
Broke the silence
Creating all things
You thought of me

So now I surrender
I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything
Yes Lord I surrender
And I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything now

In my weakness
In my struggles
God You remind me
you’ve always been on the throne
Your love carries
Me through trials
Never have I
Been alone

So now I surrender
I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything
Yes Lord I surrender
And I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything now

And I lift my hands
Give up control
Yes Lord be my all in all (repeat)

So now I surrender
I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything
Yes Lord I surrender
And I stop my wandering
I lay down my pride
And give you everything now

 

The verse melody is inspired by and adapted from a melody my friend Jonah created on his guitar for one of our worship songs this Sunday. My worship pastor, Aaron, added his gospel-influenced flair (which I cannot reproduce), and another friend, Chris, helped with the lyrical trouble spots, and gave the song its title. It was a beautiful time of collaboration, and I am still feeling the glow of it all. 🙂

The above recording is just me and my piano, so it is still rough, but it is enough to share. Because I can’t hide the gifts He gives me through my songs anymore. I have to be brave.

I have to surrender, and give Him everything, now.

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